Monday, April 13, 2009

cOuch

Sneaking an update, mainly for R.

Today we got the call while we stopped into the Brick to look for cheap appliances, to help in the sale of our house. While there, I was also looking at the couches that were on sale for R. She is looking for one, and I was secretly sure that she would need it for the bedrest she would be on from the twins...

Sitting on a couch in the Brick (of all places), G & I held hands as we picked up the message.

I could tell from the way the nurse said 'Hello" what the outcome was.

But this is R's first experience of the pain and sadness associated with a phone call telling you that the beta is negative, to stop all medication and...and what exactly???

We, sadly, know this all too well. Too many times to count or fathom.

When will I learn. Obviously there is some lesson I am to learn.

For now, all I can say, on behalf of a Team Baby who gave it their all is:

a punching-fist-through-wall angry & extremely broken-hearted: Ouch.

21 comments:

  1. I am so sorry. You did give it your all. I truly hope that Team Baby will come through. But OUCH, it isn't fair xxx

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  2. Shit. I am so unbelievably sorry. My heart just aches hearing this news. Please know that you all are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  3. Oh honey, I'm sorry.
    (((Hugs)))

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  4. So sorry to hear - you know where I am.

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  5. I'm just so so sorry. Thinking of you.

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  6. This is not the news that I expected to read. I am so so sorry! :( Ouch is an understatement! ((HUGS))

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  7. Ouch is right. I am so, so sorry to hear this news. Take good care of each other. Thinking of you.

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  8. Oh no!! I'm so sorry. "Ouch" is putting it politely. I'm sorry for all of you. ((Hugs))

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  9. I am so sorry for all of you. Sending you big hugs! Please take care.

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  10. I am so sorry. I was praying for all of you this weekend and thinking about you all today. I wish it wasn't so.

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  11. Oh goodness...I am so, so, so sorry! Hugs to all of team baby. Please take good care of each other.

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  12. I am soooo sorry. Please know that I'm here for you no matter what. I Love you both (u and G) and am sorry that it didn't happen for you.

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  13. Oh guys! I'm so sorry! So so sorry.

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  14. My heart dropped reading this news! I'm so sorry for you all! I will keep you all in my thoughts!

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  15. Oh, hun, this is so not what I was expecting to see here today. I am so so sorry....Many hugs to all of Team Baby.

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  16. A definite ouch -- I am so very sorry. Sending big hugs your way.

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  17. Crap. I am so sorry. I was having such high hopes for this cycle. Please know that I am thinking about all of you.

    Tina

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  18. Oh no! I'm crying for you! That sucks. I'm sorry.

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  19. I got tears in my eyes when I read the update...I had thought about you so many times throughout the course of the day and kept checking your blog. I'm so sorry, so very sorry that things did not work out for you both. I know you're all in a lot of pain right now and it seems unbelievable that life continues to march on. I'm thinking about you guys. Hugs.

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  20. Oh no I am so incredibly sorry :( I wish there was something more I could say, but this just plain sucks so I know nothing will make it better. Hugs to you and R. Hang in there.

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  21. I wasn't hear to say it when it was a fresher wound but I am so sorry for the negative result. I wish it could be different. I am hoping you'll have this weekend to rebuild.

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